I’ve become quite skilled and undoing my work. Stitches that were uneven, carefully picked out and restitched. Piano fingering I learned, unlearned and refingered for better execution. The garden I planted once, redesigned for less intense maintenance. The stories I’ve told myself for many years, now seen with different eyes, revised.
These undoings have taught me a lot. They are a mix of improvement, grace, and surrender.
I used to fear coming “undone.” Now it seems there’s no other way to move forward.
NOTE: This bit of writing came after an hour spent pulling out stitches in a sweater I thought I had just finished for my granddaughter. It’s ok. Most of it survived the undoing.
Thank you to all who make this writing space a place of safety, support, and beauty.
The Virginia State Literacy Association Conference 2021, “Illuminating the Path to Literacy.” I found the Zoom link. Click. Author-Illustrator Jarrett Lerner was on the screen. He had a baseball cap on his head backwards. He asked, “Please type ‘Yes’ or ‘No’ in the Chat if you feel you are creative.
Yes! No! Sometimes! Yes, in certain situations, but I cannot draw at all.
Jarrett said it was his goal for all of us to come away with a greater understanding of the creative process and a stronger belief that all human beings have an innate creative energy. He said that our culture has bought into a false notion that drawing is a “You can.” or “You can’t.” ability. When and where did we come to believe that? I remember my first doubt about my drawing happened in 2nd Grade. By 8th Grade, the belief “I can’t draw” was entrenched.
Today, Jarrett Lerner taught me that drawing is an act of seeing and doing. He said that what artists and illustrators do is try to simplify and deconstruct the thing they are trying to draw. They look at what is easiest, what shapes, lines, letter formations could represent the object. All attempts are kept. Then the artist takes a look. What needs changing? What could be added? This is revision and every mistake is an opportunity to learn. We can grow our visual vocabulary and try a variety of tools.
He was right. When we use even a little of our creative energy, we are happier. I’m grateful for the moments of happiness learning with Jarrett Lerner today.
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