April 3, 2018

Today I attended a regional meeting for literacy coaches and reading specialists. As I looked around the room, I saw very few women and no men even close to my age. Most in attendance were probably the ages of my own children. It felt a little like middle school. Who should I sit with? Will they want old me at their table? I began to wonder if I should begin to think about retiring. After all, I am a grandmother to 11 and soon 12. Does that signal a different season for me? If I didn’t work, would my relationships with them change, deepen, or visits happen more frequently? I’m not sure.

I’m SO torn. I love teaching. I love learning. I love figuring out how kids learn. I love working with teachers on how we can be more effective teachers of reading and writing. I still love reading professional literature and have spent a fortune on picture books and professional books. How do you know when it is time to set your passion aside? Can it ever really be set aside? So how do you kindle your literacy passion outside the boundaries of school?

Therein is the problem. Literacy learning and teaching IS what energizes me and keeps my brain active. I’m in a school where I have positive relationships with most staff members. We are progressing in workshop teaching. We are progressing in interventions that reach individual students by need. We have had phenomenal success with our first graders this year and may even be able to significantly close a gap with our 3rd grade Spanish-speaking students. After intensive work on building background knowledge, using strategies for unlocking new vocabulary , enlarging decoding skills, and retelling and comprehension discussions, we feel pretty confident that many of the 12 students in the intervention will be able to pass their state Standards of Learning tests in May. That would be AMAZING.

Maybe this writing is helping me see that perhaps it is not time YET. I feel there is much work I want to do and can do still in teaching. But then there are all those other pursuits such as writing, taking a sewing class, learning to kayak, naturalist courses, community service, family history and genealogy, piano lessons, college work in music. Sometimes I feel cursed by the many interests that pull at my brain and heart.

Time to table this decision for the night. I’d be happy to hear from you and how you may have made the decision to retire.

 

3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. macrush53
    Apr 03, 2018 @ 22:43:13

    Oh, I totally understand! I love teaching in the library and love being with the students. What has helped me is giving myself permission to not teach full time after 44 years. I want to write and I will sub. Plus in my state, to work full time another year would significantly benefit me financially. Good lunch with your decision.

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  2. Stylish Teach
    Apr 03, 2018 @ 23:26:39

    Please don’t retire! As a teacher in the middle of both groups that you described, I can tell you that we need you, all teachers at any stage in their teaching need you! Thanks for posting.

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  3. Debbie Lynn
    Apr 04, 2018 @ 08:28:33

    Following our passions gives fills us with joy and purpose. I think I retired too soon. Follow your heart on this decision…you’ll know when the time is right. 🙂

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